Monday, April 6, 2009

time to move on...

I suck at this whole blog thing, but here I am.

So it's that time again where the semester ends, summer's here, and you have to decide where you're going for the summer and where you're going to be in the fall. I've made my decision. I'm super anxious, nervous, excited, and scared all at the same time. These past couple of years in Arizona have been some of the greatest of my, so far, life. I've made some of the best friends I could ever ask for, and have gained family that I couldn't imagine my life without. I'm eternally grateful for these bonds I've made and the help that I've received from so many people. When I moved here I never expected to truly find myself. I don't want to toot my own horn, but right now I'm going to (ha). I'm at the best place in my life right now. If you knew me a couple years ago, or maybe just even at the beginning of this year, you would know how much of a different person I am. I don't think I've ever felt this good in my life, and I never thought I would ever be able to say that. I'm so happy! It's so exhilarating and freeing to feel this way. So with me making a lot of changes, I've made the decision to make a huge step. I've moving home to California. It's been a long time since all of my family (my mom, dad, brother, and sister) have lived close to each other. I'm the only one who's not close by anymore, and it's kind of hard for me. Especially now, I think it's so important for me to be with them. Haha it's funny because if you know me, sometimes it seems like I don't really have a family or that I'm an only child. I was raised just a tad differently than most, but I'm still pretty much the same as everyone. Well anyways, I haven't lived in California for a while now, and this is going to be a huge change. I don't have any connection there, friends wise. So when I move there that means making new friends and establishing myself, and putting myself out there. Let's just say I've never had to do that. haha but I'm working on the new me, right? It's also going to be intersting actually liveing with my family again. It's definitely going to be hard and is going to take a lot of work. Hopefully I'll be able to get my own place soon after I move there, but we'll see how that goes. I just want to be closer to my family. Now along with that, I'm going to miss everyone here: Jackie's been there for me through the thick and thin these past 3 years. seriously, 3 years I've known this girl and we're still friends. we haven't killed each other yet, and we've had A LOT of rough patches but our friendship stays strong and she's one of those who's helped me get to where I am now. I'm so lucky to have a friend like her who has accepted me so much. sometimes she was even so kind to share her family with me, and I thank her for that. I'm also going to miss my dear friend Danni. What can I say, Danni was my first real friend up at school. It was a miracle that I was able to connect with a person such as her. Who would've thought that I would find someone like her to actually accept my craziness and even share in it. She's helped me through a lot too, and I can't believe our time together is almost over. I was also lucky enough that my 2 best friends ended up getting along. We all live together plus Julie, and some others but I'm not going to talk about them. I love Julie! She completes our crazy bunch. It's not that often where you can find 4 girls that get along and can actually live together and pretty much spend all our time together. It's hard to believe that I'm giving this all up to go home and be with my family. It's so bitter sweet. Hopefully I'll get the opportunity to come back and visit, or everyone can come visit me.

I'm excited to move home and see what California has to offer me, but I'm also going to miss those times where it's just me and my 3 friends, watching Lost in our apartment in the middle of the day, in our favorite town of Thatcher. Thanks to all of those who've put up with me in my time in Arizona. I really truly appreciate every single one of you. Well, with the rate at which I'm going on writing on my blog, visit it in about a year and I'm sure I will have just put up a new post on how my life has been, but I'll try my best to update it every once in a while. Bon Voyage, and don't forget me!! LOVE YOU!


Jackie Lyn said...

touching...truley touching will be missed as well haha:)

Danni said...

Ah Missy this was a good one. When you move you definatlty need to be better at blogging, although if its anything like last summer im sure i'll be talking to you a hundred times a day. But really your going to do good in Cali, I only wish you'd just stay but we all have to spread our wings and fly haha.